trying to condense you into stanzas

(poetry)

i’ve been on and off with someone since i was 13, these are all poems i wrote about him. i think we are officially off now, so i’m sharing the poems with you all since i can no longer share with him.

a wasp posed as a bee

he pretended it killed him to sting me

still i could never flee

it seemed that neither could he

his stripes are the ones we’ll always see

but he used to lie, say we could still be

i’m still waiting for an epiphany

so i can break free

and no longer wait for his so-called honey

the most religious i ever felt

it was after meeting you, when i knelt

the only prayer in my timeline

and i just wished for you to be mine

i never believed in a god, or that he had a plan

but maybe he does, because for me you’re the only

man

it seems god knew who to put in my sight

because nothing could ever be more right

a pirate, lost at sea

“you’ll never find the gold”

she won’t let that be

for her greed will never get old

so she will never flee

no matter how much she is told

“you don’t even have the key”

because without it, she feels cold

for it’s not just a hobby

she’s just desperate for treasure to hold

and without it she’ll never feel free

for her agony is too bold

so she doesn’t care when people disagree

she thinks it’s worth every scold

and that one day everyone will see

all that she foretold

even when all the sky does is rain

and everyone is reminded of their pain

my urge to call will remain

i love you, to put it plain

even when all the rain does is fall

and everyone starts to bawl

i still want to give you a call

because without you i have lost it all

even when the sky is full with a cloud

and everyone is being loud

i still want to leave the crowd

because i feel alone if i’m not able to love you outloud

even when all the sun does is beam

and the heat turns everyone mean

i still wish you would call

i would forgive you for it all